6th anniversary

Dear Dan,

Six years. How has it been that long? Some days it seems like it has been  forever. Some days it feels like yesterday. I miss you every single hour of every single day. The early morning when we were told that you jumped from the parking garage is one of the worst days. In many ways, I still feel like the world has ended.

Google Maps and Google Maps street view are as much a curse as a blessing. I can see not only your house, but the area of the parking garage, too.

I still struggle to keep myself from playing the “what if…” game.

I want so much to move forward. but moving forward means moving to more loss. I don’t see any benefit to moving forward.

I love you and miss you more than I can ever say.